Things I Worry About: Money

Australia MoneyAs I’ve mentioned, my insomnia is brought about from stress, anxiety and depression.  Even though I have a good job it doesn’t stop me from worrying about money.

I feel that no matter how much I work, money is always a problem for me.  I just can’t make ends meet.

When I first moved to Sydney, I didn’t have a job.  In order to live I applied for a lot of credit cards and lived off of those for a couple of months.  I put everything on credit, I had a boyfriend that lived with me and his income was helpful, but we split up during the first month here and he left me for another woman.  [Read more...]

An Introduction to Insomnia

sleepy ladyI thought I should give everyone a little introduction to what insomnia is, how it effects different people, and dispel some of the myths that revolve around the disorder.

Wikipedia defines insomnia as a sleep disorder where the person is unable to fall asleep or to stay asleep for as long as they’d like. The article goes on to say that insomnia is considered both a medical sign and a symptom that can accompany several disorders that are characterized by persistent difficulty trying to sleep. [Read more...]

Things I Worry About: Christmas Trees, Christmas Dinner and Christmas Presents

Christmas trees sydney

Christmas is one of the most enjoyable times of the year, right? Nope, it’s not for me.  Christmas is one of the most stressful and depressing times of the year for me.

In fact, Christmas is so stressful that I’m already lying awake worrying about it. “It’s only September,” I hear you say.  It doesn’t matter to my brain what time of year it is, I’m still going to obsess and worry about it.

My favorite part about Christmas has always been the beauty of the Christmas tree.  No matter what is going on in my life I make sure to buy a tree and decorate it.  It lets me think about a simpler time.

This year I think I’m going to purchase a Christmas tree from a company that sells Christmas trees in Sydney called Christmas Tree Man.  They deliver the tree for free, which is brilliant.  I’m already starting to save every bit of extra money I can to go towards a tree.

Now that I have the tree purchasing figured out I get to worry about Christmas dinner.  My parents have asked me to join them for Christmas. It will be my first Christmas without Greg so it will be nice to be surrounded by family.

Unfortunately, being surrounded by family isn’t the least stressful event.  I’m worried that they are going to judge me for Greg leaving me and about the extra weight I’ve put on from binge eating. Maybe I’ll start a diet so I can lose the weight before Christmas.

Another good thing about going on a diet before Christmas is that it will help me cut down on my cost of food.  That will help me save money for the Christmas tree and presents.

I don’t know how I’m going to get money together for presents. I’m thinking of taking on a second job.  Maybe I can get a holiday job at some department store.  Any bit of extra money will help me get through Christmas.

I would make dough ornaments, but that’s typically something a 5 year old gives. Maybe I can make a sugar scrub, or vanilla extract.

Okay, I have the Christmas tree settled on and I’ve decided to lose weight for the family dinner.  The last thing I have to work out is the purchasing of presents, but getting a retail job should solve that problem.